A morning drained in my past......

It was an as usual morning which alwayz comes after d dark night....yes d morning .... the sun light was in my room above my head..but i was still on d bed...unaware of any routine life...suddenly d moblile alarm has been knocked me...oh its 8.50 am ..... i m getting late for college..bt suddenly my consciousness replied me its sunday...I've relaxed myself and again drawn d blanket on my face.....
bt my sleep was lost and eyes were still close...again i've found dt my consciousness is in dilemma of my identity ...asking me who am i???...where am i...??? wht was d wrong happening wd me i've shocked and awakened suddenly. oh it is d SAIMS hostel & i am in my room B-46... nw i was truly conscious...its it and tea time has been timed out!and also no any water supply in toilet!!
I was 1357 km far from my home alone in the new city...Indore...city of Hope!!
I was tired bcoz last night there was a long lasting group discussion with seniors......I've laid down on wall.. smething was coming in my mind i.e DOCTOR.....(Dr.)
yes doctor! I was impressed by this word first time when i was in class 6th...i was in d town hall of jamui dstrict as contestant of District Level Quiz contest Organised by "DASTAK" an NGO the hall was full of 1200 students i was there since morning and now its evening it was the final round & i was on the second position a smart personality(Dr.S.N.jha a famous paedritician of jamui) was calling me On 2nd position...Mr. Kunal kundan "the great gunda of Quiz"!!he was calling me d great gunda bcoz i was d youngest contestant among all d winner and hv also replied d answer of many brain storming questions of organiser as an audience also as being a contestants when they were selecting students from different schools!!!
Now it was the time of prize ditribution my name was called The smart person is nw in front of me...giving me prize and medal .
he asked me " what do you want to be kunal...??
" i 've replied sir "DOCTOR"
he said ..oh bcoz of me
I've replied no sir just bcoz of others...
then sir hv whispered in my ear "U should be a doctor bravo.."
That tym i was very happy & very confident..in class 6th i was madly interested in general knowlege i 've almost remembered the GK encyclopaedia.
Next morning my father was arousing me kunal! its u in d Newzpaper!!! after some monotonous sound i've awakened and saw myself and my name in newspaper... i was happy!! it was first time for me when i hv proved myself in front of my father!!!! he was also very happy ....
My father Sri Nagendra Sharma A first class Officer in BSNL as a Divisional engineer, M.Sc (genetics), and Acharya fom BHU my ideal person of my life my inspiration my power and my life!!!!
from childhood i m very close to my father he alwayz appreciate me either for my good performance or my bad!!!
After smetyms my friends were in my home & dere is a small party for my achievement by the demand of them! They all have congratulate me!!!
The days were going smoothly and life also!!! but after few months my father have decided to shift us in Patna!
after few month of decision we were in patna .
patna....capital of bihar...we wre nw in city from a small town...the things were totally different here
everything has been changed. No office staffs no any servants no any circle of friends not for me only bt also for my family! but we're adjusting ourselves my father was still posted in jamui!! i ve left dere a no. of friends and a good competitive environment!!
I've taken admission in GYAN NIKETAN patna. A well known and a prestigeous school of patna.
during admission process dere is also an interesting story whch was happened with me i'll describe dis in my nxt blog.....
Gyan niketan is also a Boyz school lyk st.michael as i've a passionate jouney of School education from nursery to class 12th only in a Boyz school.
I ve started my school ...everything was going nicely I've met a no of friends here in whch sme r bad and some r good!!
but i was good to everyone bcoz i was only a classmate to all and a friend of only one person Piyush!
In gyan niketan i ve learnt a no. of things Gyan Niketan has given me a lot and Specially a Literary thinking which make me & my thinking different from others!!
It was a morning when i was in school it was a class of hindi of dr.Ramkumar sir he has entered in classroom & made a notification that our school hs decided to publish a school magazine every year & the First magazine will Publish in nxt month that time i was in class 8th A. I dont hv paid attention to sir !!
That evening i was with my maa & papa for some shopping purpose in patna market. my maa & papa were doing shopping and i was walking wid my driver on footpath suddenly i'hv seen a man purcahsing smething with their daughter and wife.He was a lower class man and his daughter was making sme commitment to their father "hamare pas kapde hain tum maa k liye le sari le do or chhotu k liye school bag le do...."" i was still standing there and watching the girl she was nearly of my age and her cloth wre badly teared! that tym i've realized that what is poverty?? and was proudfull to the girl's commitment and spirit!!! I've backed to my home!!! it was nearly 10 O'clock i was on my study table in my room after the dinner i was sleepless the thing which was happened with me in the evening wre giving me a painfull excitation to my mind i' ve tried to write something on page it was " MAN KI LALAK" i've written an article and next morning i've given this to ramkumar sir....he was happy he appreciated me said so early very punctual kunal...it was rally a nice article it was the first article of my life.the school magazine has been published and my article was the first article of the magazine . the principle have called me and congratulate me..
I want to share u some of the line of that article in my next blog i'll try to publish my that article also..
"chah jo kho jati hai,ichha anichha ka rup dharan kar leti hai,evam abhilashaon ki mala is prakar toot padti hai jaise kachhe mitti k bane ghade me pani dalne se ghada toot padta hai or tab shuru hota hai garibi ka khel....paise to hain parantu simit jis se wo apne man ki lalak mita sake ya ghar par apni bibi bachho ki bhukh .............."
the appreciation leads me to write a no. of articles and poem....in gyan niketan i was an average student but being an average student i hv perfomed well in school academic performance as well as in extra curricular activities..i hv obtained a gud rank in All india science olympiad and cipel betwwen 7th to 10th. As i hv a social attitude from the begining of my life i hve also worked with Help age india, red cross society ,tarubhumi, rotary & lions club & a no. of NGOs of patna.
some of the poem and article were published in differet newspaper of patna. My articles were also published in The Hindu but these were a low weightage article for such a big Newspaper of india. till 10th my life was between the my room , my school ,my books & my diary in which i was always busy. but every uncle and aunty of my colony was familiar with me. they alwayz used to compare me wid their children so as a result i hv a less friend circle of my own age instead of this i hv a friendly relationship with the head of the family of my colony . my this nature helped my mother to establish my family as a friendly and prestigeous status in the new city!!
After 10th i 've concentrated my mind on preparation of pmts and taken PCMB in 12th and i 've joined OES because i 've to realise my Dream. This tym i was very serious abt my career and also my lucky no. is 1 & zodiac sign is Leo i always want Name & fame!!
this was an evening and i was in my room after my coaching classes i was puzzled with H C verma physics numericals with tea in my hand and a melodious ghazal of Jagjit singh was running on my PC .
suddenly i've stopped on one of numericals on mechanics i 've applied all of my concept but was getting a wrong answer...i've fed up & closed the book and started reading the newspaper.It was on the heading "president rule in bihar" that was the time of president rule in bihar. Peoples of bihar were hoping that after prez rule the situation will be improve…things will be change..image of bihar will be change on the world scenario.but I was the great critc of worst situation in bihar and person who are responsible for the worst condition of bihar…I’ve smiled on the heading and just started to write something.I’ve written on the page Rashtrapati sashan ; tamashbeen bihar ka naya mukhauta…My slept thought has now been on the tip of my pen I was angrily writing on the page it was the extent of critcism It was really a meaningfull article. It was also the milestone of my writing career and in last u’ll realize it how much it is true…
Next day after my coaching classes I was in the office of Hindustan Dainik Newspaper’s chief editor chamber . he was absent I’ve kept the article on his table and get backed to my home.
It was many days after visit of the press. There was no any publishing of my article in the newspaper I was checking it very curiously from 2 to 3 weeks…I’hv thought that the peon of that office has thrown my article in dustbin becoz I always used to tease him by saying that in bihar Corruption starts to you my dear and it will end when your moral values will be arise…then he used to give me a smile but I was known that he is not spitting on face becoz he was just a peon!!!!
The days were passing i’ve almost forgot about the article. I was in school it was recess time I was in preparation of next class. suddenly my cell starts ringing its displaying papa jee on my Samsung R220 cell (first cell of my life). I’ve received the call
Papa:- beta had u given any article to the newspaper?
Me:- yes! But it is many time ago
Papa:- it has been published in the todays newspaper just next to the editorial page as a best article…congratulation it is a nice article.
me:-thanx!
Suddenly an another voice comes from the phone….congratulation kunal !it is really a nice article !you have choosen a nice way of representation of ur thinking!!! Just meet me in DD patna (doordarshan).
The call was ended but I was really very strange after talking to him. That evening I have talked to my father about the person on the phone!!
He was mr.malviya DD director at delhi centre that time he was in my father’s chamber for some of his official work. Before his arrival my father was busy in reading newspaper and suddenly he seen my name & article in newspaper.
I’ve concluded that he has made such commitment in front of my father to impress him & quick solution of his problem as many people do this in a govt. office.
It was nearly a week after that incidence I’ve forgot the things since my father has again told me that mr.malviya have called him again and told him to send me at DD-patna to meet the director mr.grover.My father has also pressed me that if u’ve skill and u r getting opportunity u should utilize dis but studies must not be hamper!!
One day after my coaching classes I was going back to my home.that tym I was passing from DD-patna station which was in between my house & coaching! Suddenly I’he decided to visit mr.grover sir i’ve turned my bike to the TVstation. It was really a nice & big tv station . I’ve went to director’s chamber and asked peon to meet him. Ha has given me a slip and I’he written my name with refrence of malviya sir!after few minutes he called me..i was now in front of him he asked me to sit!
He said you’re Kunal! I –yes sir! But you r too much younger beta!i ‘ve replied yes sir !he was continuing you have written dis article??
( my article was kept on his table in between some of his file.i was thinking that mr.malviya sir had visited to him and told him about me) I replied Yes sir!!unbeleivable !! can u show me some more of ur articles and poems.i said yes sir! I’ve given him my diary he was reading it sincerely!!
Do you want to be a journalist?? I said no sir ! I want to be a doctor!! I write these things just becoz of my interest in literature & social work!!
Sir surprisingly ohh!! You have interest in very big thing beta! Do you know?? your writing skill and your age has a big difference!! I said I know sir!with a cute smile!!
He was loughing you are really very confident ! I lyk ur attitude!!
He was silent for sometime thinking about where he should utilize me and then called a man he was Mr. alok sir asst.director!! he introduced me to him ! he was a really a energetic personality of DD patna he was director of “YUVALOK” a youth programme of ddpatna at that time!! After normal discussion we were very frank to each other he was the student of Film & television institute of India ,Pune!! He had given me a lot of appreciation & also made a another segment of debate in his programme and told me I’ve to anchor that segment!
I was very happy that time after some paperwork I was a part of that programme.it was really very proudfull for me Here I’ve represented a no. of debate with many personalities of patna on several topic some of them was the great discussion of my life I ever had !!
Recording & broadcasting of my programme was the new word added in my life after study, Quiz,writing & publishing. It was also broadcasted on AIR.
My journey with DD patna was a remarkable time of my life. I’ve spent there a pleasnt time. I’ve a circle with well known personality of patna. I was now a responsible person of my own life. I’ve managed my time very wisely in study,school,coaching,preparation & recording.
From 11th to 12th….I was associated with DD patna. During these period I’ve got several cheques of different amount as per the duration of my programme…these cheques were not a very big thing for me bcoz I was getting prize & money from class 6th…for different performances i.e.for quiz., Olympiad ,school competitions & also for my service to different NGOs. But these amount has created a unique thing in me i.e. self respect….my every attitude is deprived of over valuation of money….money never plays a big role in my life…I always believe in the quality of a man rather than his status, his richness or his ultra modern lifestyle…money is a very small things for those who live their life for self respect…& also I’ve a personal experience about money is that” if you are valuing your self respect, your talent, your purity for your work more than any thing in this world i.e. than money also…money will never go very far from you.”
The time cycle was revolving very fast…my 12th exam was coming and also pmts..it was the time when I was too much sincere about my studies.It was the time to realize my dream.I’ve left everythings..no any programmes and no more social attitude it was the time for me to proof myself in studies also…I ‘ve given exams and pmts…and results were out I hve done quite good in 12th but disqualified in aipmt. This was the first time in my life when I was unsucessfull .…but I was qualified in state pmt & my mains result were awaited I hve decided to take admission in ALLEN.kota . the day of mains result was the last day of my stay in patna.i’ve taken admission in allen ,kota and shifted in a single room for 1 year with one of my school friend.The one year at kota was the isolated year for me to this world.i’ve seen there a madness about preparation in the medical aspirants thousands of young mind for a common exam. A common target for all DOCTOR DOCTOR & DOCTOR !! faculties at allen were uncomparable to any other institutions in India. I was also running very fast in such a competitive environment. The time of pmts was very near I’ve aggregated all of my effort and given the exams this time I was qualified in PT and was very happy..this was the result of my deserveness. I’ve started my preparation for mains examination..suddenly I’ve an infection of chicken pox. It was a very painfull time of my life..my two important weeks were wasted..i’ve given the mains examination and get backed to my home from kota…it was the day of mains result I was too much excited…but all of my hope have lost when I’ve seen myself as a disqualified candidate..i’ve broken into pieces…I was very depress I was pathless,hopeless, and aimless. Every door was locked I’ve given the examination of state mains exaaminaton & filled a last form in the market i.e. MPpmt dmat…I’ve secured under 500 rank in this and also got a good rank in engineering stream in my state pmt as I was the student of both subjects bio & math.but as I’ve a dream of a doctor i’ve selected SAIMS in the counseling by tossing a coin in front of counseller in between people’s and saims becoz I was unknown about the colleges in mp and their status….I know I’m unsatisfied with my performance becoz I’ve a dream of study of medicine in reputated govt. institution of India. But I’m proudfull that I m still in the field of medicine.one thing I always keep in my mind that if your determination to achieve your goal is strong u’ll definitely achieve it whether your luck is with you or not!and my goal is yet not achieved but my determination is strong.
Suddenly there was a knock on my door I’ve opened the door it was one of my classmate…come fast we are getting late for lunch after that seniors has called us!
I’ve told him wait a minute I ‘m getting ready…would you like to hear something..he said yes….i’ve smiled and told him….
“girte hain shah sawar hi maidan-e-jung mein
Wo tifl kya khakh gire jo ghutano ke bal chale……””